i’m super hungry and super thirsty. i would go grab something to eat and drink right now, but i might not be able to eat and drink it all. it would take me a while just to get it through my throat into my stomach. it still hurts and still is hard for me to swallow. ha. well, i guess i’ll just starve. i’ve been kind of doing that for the last past couple of days because of my throat. ugh. hopefully, today after i come from the doctors and hopefully my doctor gives me medicine i’ll be fine and won’t have to worry about my sore throat. i just hope so.

it has been a week without talking to you. wow i survived. no bad dreams this time. i wonder why? maybe its because i guess i’m just used to it. well, sometime today i’ma text you because i really need to tell you what’s been up. i wanna tell you about my throat. lol. i was planning on texting you lastnight, but nah i didn’t want you to get in trouble and have to run miles during the night. well, i’ve been missing you and really been wanting to talk to you. hopefully, i’ll have a clear voice and throat so that i can’t talk to you clearly. because right now my voice isn’t so clear. its super ugly!

i hope nothing bad is wrong with me. please heal my throat. my throat has been hurting and i can’t even swallow anything. i try too but i just can’t. i hope i don’t have to remove my tonsils and what not, because i think the reason why i have a sore throat is because of my tonsils. i’m so scared. i really want to get better because i don’t want to have to remove my tonsils and i really wanna have fun today when i go to the hotel. and my head hurts also from all the worrying and shit. please please please heal me.

man, its so early and i am up. i can’t go back to sleep. every hour i’ve been waking up. uuuugh. my throat still kind of hurts but the swelling went away. its just hard time for me to swallow still yet. hopefully, i’ll get some medicine from the doctors today. and hopefully i won’t get my tonsils removed, yikes!

so, i researched about tonsils and the symptoms of tonsils is the same thing how i am feeling right now. well, it says the doctor can recomend you to take your tonsils removed. it only takes 20 minutes to be removed. ’ what if ’ its my tonsils. i guess i’m going to have an operation and get it removed. its the best thing so the pain will go away.

i think the reason why my throat has been hurting is because of my toncils. it really hurts. i can’t swallow anything. i try too, it hurts a lot. i can’t even talk good. the right side of my face is swollen. man, i’m scared. i’m going to the doctors tomorrow around 8 to go check up what’s wrong. man, i’m thinking “what if” i have to get it removed?! man, i hope not. i’m so sacred. i wished someone would just tell me it will be alright. but no one hasn’t. i wished someone checked up on me because obviously my mood is sore and it has a sad face next to it. but mainly i wish this hasn’t had happened to me. :’(

my throat hurts like a bitch. i can’t even swallow anything. if i do it will hurt. i told my mom and she was like, “that’s your fault. for drinking juice/water with ice everytime and your complaining! go and drink with ice again.” uuugh, fuuck!

webcaming with my cousin and his half brother and his cousin. its funny how i’m the only girl and the only one from maui. lol.